Let the Love Find You.

Here's another post about self-help books and my realisation through them. They do work though. 

I am currently reading 'Feel the fear and do it anyway'. I have read quite a bit of the book and then I completely forgot about it for a long time, now I feel like it's the right time to read and finish this book. I am very anxious person and I actually care what people think of me because I wasn't liked when I was a teenager so the feeling is still there. When it comes to performing I get the worst performance anxiety and it takes away my performance, which is bad. 

This book covers a lot of aspects and if you need a kick in your butt - read it! But one thing that I realised from it is that I don't let people love me. 

LET PEOPLE LOVE YOU! Just let them.

I have quite lovely (in physical terms) mother and I know she cared but sometimes I see that as overly protective love which really puts me off and for what? My step dad loves me too and he tries to go somehow about it but I just have a big fat concrete wall and I don't let anyone to break it and then I complain that no one loves me. But how can someone show love to me when I push it without giving a try. 

There is a lot of reason why I am this way but what I'm trying to work towards now is to destroy the wall I have built and to just let the love come in, in whatever form parent, friend, crush, enemy it might be. I wish you the same. Why destroy yourself with worrying and feeling not loved when you try to shut the love you receive through your friends and parents? Seems illogical doesn't it? 

So don't do it!  

Yours Izabele

xoxo